Yesterday tahlil at arwah Faruk's place was good. The money that his mother gave us, we didn't want it. And since it was impolite to give it back, we decided to donate it. I feel good.

Matin drove 5 girls back home, it was madness, really. Four people squeezed at the back of a modest Nissan. Hahah!


And Khay came over we can quite click when it comes to song choices on Rosie and Medusa.

I went cycling with Osha and Az and we died.
And Osha said I supposedly flirted with the bicycled aunt. Hence the woman asking for my number. Freaking hilarious.

Being shameless and just plain annoying.

(a conversation going on before about the old aunty...)
Kyun: HAHAHAH what did you say? How old was she anyway?
Ili: About my mother's age! And I was just being friendly. I didn't know I had such charm. I tried on Osha though but it didn't work. (and here is where my shameless sentence inserts itself)
Do you think it'll work if I try it on you?
Kyun: It's hard to try anything on Osha. Tried and tested. And fail. Lol, why not? ;)

Gosh I cannot stop smiling at that!

ofblack&white
10:39 PM

TOMORROW IS MICRO, MICRO WWWWHHHHHHYYYYYYYYY IS THERE THE PRESSURE FOR ME TO PASS (well it's a pre-req) BUT AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH.


PANIC PANIC PANIC.

WWWWWWWWHHHHYYYYYYYYY MUST MICRO BE TOUGHER THAN MACRO GOD I HOPE JOHN CHARD WILL BE NICE TO SET THE PAPER EASIER THAN LAST'S OR TWO YEARS BACK.

Ok if I don't live to see tomorrow 1pm you know what happened.

KTHXBAI.

ofblack&white
10:20 PM

God, tell me how to walk away,
when all she does is make me smile each day.

Smile inside out, smile...

I wonder why I asked for more when I have me in your waking thoughts,
maybe if you stop reminding me that it will get easier with time,
easier on me.

Ah. Back to work.

ofblack&white
12:19 AM

I had to increase the font because I felt it was wee bit small.

I either take longer than normal people to realise this or my eyes are getting worse.


Study study study makes my head burst. Verge of bursting. I didn't get to chase twice for shower. HAHA. It is funny how the simplest and silliest things made my day.

We had a picnic at the mosque while the Ustadz was giving a sermon. How blasphemous! But seriously, if you have good salad (especially if they are from Charco's) I think I'm quite forgiven.
Hahahaha maybe not.


My cousins are funny, love their blogs, especially Tisya's. Let me quote some recent examples.

"i remember when i was young i loved to give my mum things that i can use.
for example; mathematical set, ruler, colour pencil.
and when i give her, a few days later i'll ask her for it and i'm the one who uses it.
HEY, AT LEAST THE THOUGHT IS THERE EYH!"


"so... mothers day is drawing near. HAHAH KAY NO. this is gg to be interesting cos all the past presents i bought my mom are all, rubbish? i'm gonna get my mum some eshays candles from town so my present is sorted out.
BUT THE QUESTION IS WHETHER MY MUM WILL GET HER MUM A PRESENT OR NOT.
duudeee. its like defining. its like if she gives her a present, its like "i love you very much" but if she doesnt, its all "OH NO SHE DIDNNTT".
will be interesting ;)"


"eh, minah! kau takmu main tembak bende konek pasal kawan aku uh! kau siape sia nak bebual pasal dier gtu macam!? kau ingat ni funfair per sia! please la eh! mak bapak tak ajar per untuk MIND YOUR OWN BLOODY BUSINESS?!?! sumpah sia! no life bodoh kau! kau cakap dier da tak virgin? kau ade proof ke tak ni sekarang? eh, sekali KAU yang da tak clean siakk! vajayjay dah longar pe girl?"


I cannot take it any longer but to laugh at the hilarity of 14 year olds.

Goodness, I never felt so jittery for exams I haaaaate it when I'm pressured. If I fail, remoduling takes money.
Money gone during recession period = FAIL.
And of course other unspeakable motivations.

It's been like these lately, I walk on clouds but once in a while I fell through the un-solid part of it. Gravity is reality after all. And of course, having checks on my sanity, humility, pride, and again reality does wonders to soothe the soul.
Like milk. (:

Ok like what Ms Koh love to say, press on! I am looking forward to the 15th where I can cycle, planning for Ubin with Osha Kyun and Azizah.
Annnnd have long midnight conversations again <3

God let the exams fly.

ofblack&white
6:57 PM

Well, it came a day and a few hours late.
It was on 8th May, 0050hours, so I was told.

So morning came and like the usual the alarm went off when I suddenly realised it was my ringtone. Nabila hardly calls you know? More less call at 7am.


But well, soon things end, it is just inevitable.

There are events that bind us together, and this is not a good example, but an example nonetheless. One by one, old TKsians contacted each other, share the same feelings, passing of condolences. Old TKsians who never dream of talking or texting each other, bind together and call-trees really work. I guess by afternoon even the teachers were informed. Talk about giving communication a run for its money. It's too sudden, too unnerving, I'm just left shaken.


Well,





He has got so much in store for the future. NUS, turning 21 next month, mother's pride, the future bread winner for the family.

Well, did brought things to perspective.


Rest well friend, rest well.

ofblack&white
3:27 AM

Because sometimes you breathe, all over my skin.
And you always end up, much closer than close.
Closer than close.
And that is when
I give in.

ofblack&white
9:22 PM